Entry: Both In Heaven Friday, October 07, 2005



The doctor suggested that we took her off the life support system.

So my grandmother left us at about 10.45am yesterday.(6th October).

In my opinion, she's already left us on Monday.

We stood around her, talking to her while catching glimpses of the declining levels of her heart rate, blood pressure etc.

There was no defining moment for her to leave us. Which is why I am not sure myself if she's really dead. Is she really dead?

I find it so hard to believe. We're cremating her tomorrow already; having the coffin in the house for too long gets too depressing.

It's a shock to everyone.

I don't think it's her time to go you know?

But at least she'll be accompanying my grandfather.

I walked out of a bakery in Taipan today at about 12.45pm and this really good looking guy in a sandwich board passed me a stressball promoting Maxis' latest package. Truly an angel from heaven. What perfect timing for a stressball.

Even the most dramatic television shows have yet to instill this type of storylines in their episodes. It's damn morbid.

Praying makes you cry. When you pray, you look at her photo. When you look at her photo, you think. You think about the past, you just cry somemore.

Now I know what people mean when they say, "You think you've got problems?!"

At least phone calls will not be a nauseating experience any longer.

   25 comments

Jayelle
October 15, 2005   05:03 PM PDT
 
lilian: i hope they are, i hope they are. we've cried enough..:)
lilian
October 14, 2005   02:56 PM PDT
 
Oh dear, I am so sorry to know about this. I know both of them must be real happy to be together now. But that's a lot for you and your family ya. Take care, dear! Tears are good. Cry all of them and the sun will rise again, as usual. *hugs*
Jayelle
October 10, 2005   12:43 PM PDT
 
crazy: thanks. we'll try.:)

pingz: i know they are.

lydia: thanks for the consolation. :)

bren: =\ we will. thank you.:(
bren
October 10, 2005   03:36 AM PDT
 
These past few posts have been really sad. :/ My condolences to you and your fam. Hang in there girl. *hugs*
lydia
October 9, 2005   09:14 PM PDT
 
as i said in ur previous post, stay strong yeah gurl? ur grandparents live forever in ur heart, in ur memories. take care.
pingZ
October 9, 2005   04:57 PM PDT
 
so sorry to heard bout grandma... but i'm sure both your grandparents reunited and will be watching you from heaven
Crazy
October 9, 2005   11:44 AM PDT
 
girl, my deepest condolences to you and your family.

take care and cheer up!!
Jayelle
October 9, 2005   05:24 AM PDT
 
joce: i hope she knows. :(
joce
October 9, 2005   03:46 AM PDT
 
take care girl. at least you know she's not suffering and she left peacefully knowing you all care and love her. plus having you guys all by her side. sorry girl.
Jayelle
October 9, 2005   01:28 AM PDT
 
phaikwah: we will, thanks.

^.^: thank you so much.

krystle: it has been alot. thanks.. thanks. :)

liss: yeah, i am. but it hasn't sunk in yet, you know?

anonymous: you are right. i need my family so much in times like these.

c.ho: she was. she was.
c.ho
October 8, 2005   02:41 PM PDT
 
shucks.. i'm so sorry to hear that Jo. It is a real shocker. Your grandma was quite young too:(. All the best.. Hugs.
anonymous
October 8, 2005   02:41 AM PDT
 
People actually think lightning wouldnt strike twice at the same place,but it does,no words can justify your loss,asking you to cheer up is like making you a emotionless soul.Just when you think you are at the lowest point of your life,it gets worse..(God can be unfair,and He loves them more than you do,if you believe that He is up there).Be strong girl....the pillar of strength is your family,take care..
liss
October 8, 2005   12:33 AM PDT
 
two doting grandparents will be watching their sweet lil jolene from heaven.
hugs girl.
do hope u feel better already.
kRystle
October 7, 2005   09:57 PM PDT
 
hey girl.... sorry to hear about everything dats been hapening to you. U've really been tru alot. I know how u feel so take care alrite? u've got lots of us here for you! :) godbless.
^.^
October 7, 2005   09:46 PM PDT
 
heyz , elo, juz wanted to say my condolences to u and ur family although we do not noe each other... cheer up kayz :)
phaikwah
October 7, 2005   09:45 PM PDT
 
hey dear,am really sorry to hear about this,take care of yourself and family and try to cheer up k?

*hugs*
Jayelle
October 7, 2005   08:52 PM PDT
 
bubble: thanks for the kind words.:| I know. thank you.

munsta: thank you, ..

uncle giant sotongs: sometimes life sucks

collete: ah, thanks..

willwolf: that's our only consolation. yes, thank you.

morticya: thanks

expectation: i've been doing that alot.

zeroimpact: it's so difficult to forget them.
zeroimpact
October 7, 2005   08:24 PM PDT
 
I'm not gonna say I've been there & I understand...
Made me think of my past too...
But let time heal your wounds, think of more positive thoughts.
Be strong and stroll along...
You'll get better in time...
expectation
October 7, 2005   05:54 PM PDT
 
awww, i almost teared.
morticya^33
October 7, 2005   03:15 PM PDT
 
*sayangs*
Willwolf
October 7, 2005   03:12 PM PDT
 
Both of your grandparents are finally together again. Don't be sad. Chin up ok?
colette
October 7, 2005   01:03 PM PDT
 
i'm really sorry bout what happened.Deepest condolences.
Uncle Giant Sotong
October 7, 2005   12:45 PM PDT
 
Waaaa...! *sob*
munsta
October 7, 2005   10:05 AM PDT
 
i am so sorry to hear about your grandma too...deepest condolences to your family.
bubble
October 7, 2005   04:13 AM PDT
 
hey sweetie. cheer up. you'll get used to it somehow. i bet they dont want to see u sad either. my deepest condolences. take really good care. much lurve to you. mwah.

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