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Wednesday, May 24, 2006


Mainstream Hype Indulgence

I felt like I was a giant watching little clockwork toys taking to the stage in a little musical box.

-_-

Note: Don't ever ever ever buy RM90 seats. Call me the next time some big name musical decides to come to Malaysia and utilizes Istana Budaya instead....or even KLPAC(a little bias here as I've not seen it for myself, only heard rave reviews about the place).

I wouldn't KNOW if the thing sucked. I was looking down from an angle. If I jumped off my row of seats, I would die. I was THAT high up and FAR away from the stage. I know how much my father hates bad seats because it'll be 2 hours(movies are about 2 hours too) of his life wasted. Felt quite bad also because it was I who made heck of a lot of noise about how I am oh so very pitiful that I didn't get to see Saturday Night Fever boohoohoo and can I PLEASE see Grease??


Thank god for Optical Zoom.


Okay lah, fun enough to make me come home to download all the Grease songs.


L-r: Aud, Jia Min, Hsin.

Someone shouted, "JOLENE LAI PEI SHAN!!!" when I was going down the escalator after the show. EH EH EH!! HSIN EE!! JIA MIN!!! AUDREY!!! AUDREY IS BACK FROM US ALREADY(I know that..but still, seeing it is believing it mah:P).

Apparently they were oggling my shoes before they looked up and realised that it was me. HAHAHAHA. Typical girls lah!!:D *hugs* So good to see them. And see how pretty they looked, all dolled up for the occasion? These girls mad one lah. Saved up for the RM200 seats AND had a good time.


Since I had my hair up with a chopstick the entire day, I had nice curls to camwhore with! That's my brother's toes by the way. He was playing Dota when I asked him to help me to take a picture of my hair.

Don't know lah if I should go for straight hair or curls. Thinking of rebonding. I know, I'm like FOUR years behind time. It's just so typical of me to wait for something to go wayyy out of fashion before jumping into it. Wait, no. No. It's usually the case of me holding on to a certain style for SOOOO long that it comes back in fashion.

Oh yeah! I finally watched The Da Vinci Code at Central Square(the only go-able shopping mall in Sungai Petani. Which is just *slightly* better than Summit USJ.). After our class ended at 11 o'clock..we decided to catch the 11.30am show. I called up the woman and asked if there were still tickets and she aptly replied, "Ohhh..banyak lagi."

Well, that's Kedah for you.


Most of the movies these days are book adaptations and I was quite upset with myself that I have not finished reading the book. I made it a point to read all the books before heading to the cinemas. Here I am, catching up on some reading in the elevator.


Still reading..


GSC offers the cheapest student rates around. PLUS this GSC is located in a small town. Go check the websites if you don't know what I'm talking about. Seems that big cities have higher ticket prices.


Only RM4!! ne ne ni bu bu.

I don't know why the movies got such bad reviews. Chee Kiang was telling me that he fell asleep when they spoke french. He watched it with his scholarly friends(Kai Lin, Charming Chun Leen, FuiChin(did u go?) and Britt.. not sure who were the rest.:)) when they went to Singapore for their university interviews. Obviously lah, no Malay subtitles to explain to you ma. There weren't even english subtitles for the French part. Kakaka..go Singapore and see somemore lah:D

But I liked it!! I went with Lie Yuen, Narjit, Ah Thong and Steven. Since I only read till the part where Teabing brings them into London with his private jet(i'm a slow reader, you got a problem? *turns tables over HK-gangster style*..Andy see how you influenced me.. haha)... so up till that part, Narjit, Lie Yuen and I were squealing about how they missed out some parts and how it's not like that and what was actually said instead. After that part, Narjit and Lie Yuen whispered to each other excitedly and leaving me to go, "Whatwhatwhat??" only to be replied with annoyed "YOU SEE LAAA!!!"s from the both of them. 

I guess it's fun to have read HALF the book and then watch the movie. Something different right. Like having dessert half way through dinner. And then continuing with dinner after that. Different parts of your taste buds have been stimulated. Gives a whole new perspective.

I LIKED THE MOVIE!!

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Life is so much better now that I have installed an aircon in my room in Kedah. Gone are the days where I would slide all over the floor crying about how hot it is and feel the oil ooze out from my pores.


Mr. Aircon Man installing an aircon. He made such a mess with the drillings and stuff.. everything in my room was covered in brick and cement powder.:( A good excuse for spring cleaning..spent nearly 4 hours sweeping, mopping and wiping everything that has a surface.

Strange thing though, the next morning, during class, I received an sms.

"Hi...I am the airconman yesterday. Everthing find?"

0_0

This must be some new form of customer service.
I replied, "Yea, it's fine. Thank you very much."

"Have a nice day ^^ " came the reply. Got emoticon somemore.

"Hehe. Thanks. You too." I was still playing the grateful customer.

"So you study here?" he queried.

........

Okay. Definitely not part of his company's customer service policy already.

When Chee Kiang called, I told him, "Hehe! I installed my aircon yesterday and the aircon man smsing me today. Aircon man hitting on me leh!"

"Don't perasan kay!" he said.

"Cannot perasan abit issit now! Cis! Let me perasan for awhile ma. Hahaha."

Cheap thrills.

But since the aircon man spoke in passable english(which is a pleasant surprise), I now even know about his grand hopes for the future.

"ur right .. kedah damn sien. i wan go back to penang next yr. become sub contractor there instead."

"Icic..good luck to you then"

By the way, it's not the guy in the photo. It's another one who was doing the outside unit. The one in the photo reminded me of some kungfu guy what with the big oversized V shaped t-shirt and big puffy track pants.

I just find it damn amusing that I was smsing my aircon man. But after awhile I got bored and stopped replying and took a nap in my newly air conditioned room instead. 

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Monday, May 22, 2006


Have You Ever Gone Trigger Happy in A Pasar Malam?

This entry is a little overdue..just like my pimptress entries(PATIENCE LAH). But hope you guys enjoy the photos anyway. Yep, 56 killer is here to kill your modem again.


One thing bad about buying a fridge with no dual component would be having a whole winter wonderland experience whenever you take the chicken out to defrost. It's so bad that we can't even close the door to the freezer compartment due to the accumulated frost. We decided to manually remove all the frost. Hard work you know!


So much of snow!! Yeah, the hat is my hairband. I'm so used to it that I didn't even realise that I wore it out of the house to throw rubbish once. I asked Lie Yuen, "Why are people looking at me weirdly?" She said, "I also don't know leh.."

This is how accustomed we have become to my pimptress hat. Hehe.


Aumm..


*scrape scrape* And I didn't ask Lie Yuen to take a photo at THIS angle. i look like an aunty with saggy boobs. ANGLE SAJA OKAY....ANGLE.

Josiah has been talking about this pasar malam about 15 minutes away from where we stay. He asked us if we were interested to check it out and have dinner there on Tuesday. Of course I would readily say yes to any photo taking opportunity.


Little Boss relaxing while manning his mum's rattan stall.


NAUGHTY GIRL!!! YOU DON'T WANT TO EAT YOUR RICE AGAIN??? I BEAT YOU ONLY YOU KNOW....!! WHERE'S MY TANG TIU ARRRR....??

*shivers at childhood memories* just kidding lah. Only once or twice my grandmother would say it to us. My dad's form of punishment is kneeling down in front of the altar/take rubber bands and flick it at us/leave me downstairs with the lights off/threatened to only feed me roti canai with sugar and nothing else(i ended up loving roti canai and sugar more than any other mamak food).


Ughh..but people still eat it.


The aroma of joss sticks and incense is somewhat nostalgic to the average Chinese, don't you think?


Veges are always pretty to photograph!


THE LOVE OF MY LIFE....We've been in love for... 16 years now. My grandmother put some durians on a plate for me and put some newspapers on the floor of the dining room for me to sit on. While the adults enjoyed a durian feast at the dining table, 3 year old Jolene dug her fingers curiously into the soft fleshy durian with utmost fascination. She stuck her thumb into her mouth and the rest as they say is history.


Rempah ratus... herbs.


BRA..LELONG LELONG. I know it's about the same price as those that they sell in Carrefour..but ew.. Can never bring myself to buy undergarments from pasar malam.


Petai.. quite interesting the way they present their ware.


Cosmetics. Never ever buy foundation, lipstick, eyeliner or lipliner from capalang brands. Eyeshadows are fine because mixing and matching is good. And you can throw the colour out after using it once or twice as it is so cheap. But ugh, imagine putting some RM3.90 lipstick on and then swallowing it as you do with your usual lipstick.


what..?!


Yes, I KNOW it's a watermelon.


L-r: Josiah, Lie Yuen
We bought some satay for dinner.


*air liur meleleh*


This durian dude asked me to take a photo of him. I layaned lah. And then the mango dude in the next stall told me to go home and "use the computer to see through his pants, because he never wear underwear". Sheesh.


Meat... been a while since I had some good ol' pork. It's not pork though.


Dried goods.


Nice colours!!


MMMMmmmMMm.... but no time to cook la these few days. So just for the sake of taking photographs only.


I LOVE CRABS. But lazy to peel. :( So never get to eat crabs. T_T


I LOVE SEAFOOD~~~~~


The fisherman arranging his squids so that they would look prettier.


Oklah, not exactly a favourite. Sting rays have the texture of rubber.


*Air liur meleleh more*


Not a fan of green apples, but such a pleasure to photograph!


We bought these though. Pulut udang. I thought it was otak-otak. Felt so disappointed. :(






So kaku lah they all. Supposed to do that running running thingie and look back at the camera and wave pose.


Damn old school right???


This is me buying my dinner. Yeah, makelove the diet. Mummy and Daddy say I cannot swear on my blog. Sorry.


KEROPOK LEKOR!!!! I know WHO loves it. hehhee. But you can't have too many of it at a go, or else you'll cause your palate to feel really raw..Owww.. And then if you leave the rest for later, it's no good anymore because it's best eaten when its crunchy and hot!!


finger food!


Oh god..............*orgasmic*


One of the highlights of Malaysian cuisine.


Lie Yuen wonders about the usage of pink coloured onions.


I'm not entirely excited about something pink for once.


It's supposed to go with this french toast thingie.. which is actually a square omelette.


Fried sausages.


Fried chcken!


pulut udang!


Abit like curry puff....but they have all kinds of fillings.


The obligatory bag of satays.


Inside the pulut udang..


The three fattening food to rule them all!!

It's good to break away from the norm every now and then. I'll DIE if I have to eat kuay teow thng, chicken rice, wantan mee or bakkutteh every night. Or Kangkung with soup.

:(

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Sunday, May 21, 2006


We Now Have Preachers On Friendster, yo!

There are times when I have provocative photos up on Friendster and sometimes I have what-I-assumed-to-be-provocatives photos of me up on my account. In other words, there are times when I have a full inbox and there's that dry spell sometimes.

Nope, never been one of those girls who have an overflowing friendster inbox with Ah Beng's begging to be friends. I don't think I'm an Ah Beng's cup of tea.

There was this one guy who viewed my friendster though.(among 140 viewers since the start of the month. I may be sad, but not THAT pathetic as to be excited about ONE guy) So he seemed like a very down to earth(read: far from your average egomaniac metrosexual (read somemore: bit nerdish, someone who has worked in the IT line far too long type)). And I'm judging from his profile photo. Graduation day, very happy looking, with a bouquet of flowers. His age? 27. Hmm. Someone hasn't been camwhoring in a very very long time.

He left pretty intriguing messages. A nice change compared to the usual suspects of "Can I friendster you?" "Can u gif me tel number? I want meet you." "Can I make an introduction between my penis and your vagina?"

Obviously you know I made the last one up. No Friendster-desperado types can conjure such flawless grammar in that last sentence. :)

So his first message was like this:

Boon Eu wrote:
hi jolene,

Just drop by to wish you a very happy mother's day !!! What did u do or get for your mum on this special day ?

Fair enough. At least a little effort in trying to be friendly.

Jolene wrote:
hey:)
i got her Rose Body Lotion from Bodyshop...and what did u get your mother?

What? He seemed friendly. So, I, be, well, be friendly back..

Boon Eu wrote:

hi jolene,

is bodyshop having a sales ? where did u get that ? how much is that ?

apparently, i get her nothing. Just spend more time with her and help her in doing house chores. A simple life here.... u hv msn ?

It's very hard to come across a Friendster weirdo who speaks passable english and actually asks more things than "Got photo? Wanna see your breasts."

Once again I made the last bit of the sentence up. We ALL know Friendster desperados CANNOT structure a sentence like that!

Jolene wrote:
erm yes. but can we talk through friendster? i prefer that.

no... Rm39.90. Bought at Sunway Pyramid's branch.

welll..at least u spend time with her;)

I don't like to add people to my MSN only to ignore them after awhile. Waste of space you know? For sure I'll ignore someone I don't know..

Boon Eu wrote:
errmm..... sure.... i can understand why u want to talk in friendster first..

u bought at sp ? I just pass by there just now, came back from midvalley.

u also spend time wif ur mum wut. still studying ? wht course r u taking ? i cant really see the details cause im not in ur friend list yet.

what do u like to do usually ? whts ur chinese name?


I get bored very easily with tennis type of messages. I hit you back, you hit me back. Clearly we have nothing in common and clearly I'm just being nice. So enough lah, let this message rot in my inbox.

Three days later, I get another message from this Boon Eu fella:

hi jolene,

I think i gave you a reply through friendster and still not yet receive your reply. Been wondering, is this the end of the communications. Well, if you visit my site, there might be some perceptions that i'm like a female photo collector like most people think. Hey, i add, i write, i reply and i write and i really do communicate. Now when u see this, u must have thought if you really do, u must be the most busy person in the world, there are 400++ ppl in your list !!!! Well, some reply for a short period n then disappear, some write write write also dont reply, some deleted me w/o my knowledge, some reply within the range of 2 sentences, some reply until
not enough space then we shift to email but hey, those who reply are about 1% of my list.

You aren't in my list, u reply but u stopped. I was wondering what is the purpose of being here. Isn't this place is for making friends ? Some told me, internet can not trust, the details is fake, the pic is fake, the things they put is fake, the stories they tell also fake.... watever these ppl are fake..... okay!!!! so everything in this cyberworld is fake .....so what is real ? why are ppl flocking over here and pretend making friends ? If there are real ppl wif real stories n details in the net, y aren't they open to sincere friends? Then they answered, they don't know you, you are behind the screen, can't verify at all.......I said, you got a point.... so what if i lie to you right on your face, can u tell that im lying ? Hahaha... got them....

Then they said, the ppl in their list are all known, they know them in real life...... Oh okay.... so y cant they meet me in real and then i be their real friend? they said, safety mah.... who knows you are a serial rapist killer with a vampire sucking teeth
with a monster inside you who are planning to pounce on them when you got the chance ? Bad news bout these stories is on and off in the press, don't u know ? I said, okay......, so everything here is fake, people who dare to make me their real
friends is risking their life for being killed, raped, brutally tortured by this possible monster in everyone of us.... So this is a place to group only known existing friends who they already known for years in real life....

So where do i seek new friends ? All my friends from college are here n there except where i stay..... and i am forbid from this crowded places filled with killing smokes which flocks over there and drink liver killings liquid.. so how ? how ar,
huh ??? Go back to school ? Go to gym ? Hmm.... maybe go to bookstores.... haha..... Jolene, what do u do for ur leisures ? Is your friends all your
existing known real friends ? What is your concern for now ?

-Boon Eu.

Jolene wrote:

You're scary. I ignore people on friendster for leisure. Yes, all 500+ people on my list are friends from real life. My concern is you.

Bye bye.

o_o Nah, I didn't send that back to him. I also malas to reply. Later he send me another loooong message. Wastage of brain space to try and read through it.

Freak!! Have you ever had someone demand that you reply their messages??? By the way? Bad english..baaaad baaaaaaaad baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaad. Sorry lah, abit anal about these things. I know I don't speak(most of the time) or write(sometimes) like the Queen Of England, but if it's my first time talking to a certain someone, I will be trying my very best to avoid the simplest grammatical blunder.

That aside, my god. Will you look at his novel of a Friendster message?? And those points are quite silly.

If someone doesn't want to be a friend, she won't reply. Take the hint, buddy. No need to reply with an entire thesis discussing about the pros and cons about making friends online. Furthermore it is not even ENTICING to talk to a stranger.

Gone are the days of adding random people to my ICQ list and surfing IRC to make "new friends". Those were the days when only a grand total of 2 people from my standard 6 class had internet at home.

These days? I can't even find time or energy to layan ALL my real life friends online(I still love you guys, you know I do. Just message me anytime,we'll catch up.. yam cha or something?) and most of them don't message me for nothing because they are very busy as well.

Whereelse, friends through blogging, that's a whole new genre. We share the same interests, we have a slight understanding about each other's lives via our blogs... but other means of friends-making ie. Skype, Friendster, MSN Pages, what not what not.. ugh. So ... I don't know...internet noob(female)/internet perv(male.).

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Jolene Lai, Jolene Lai,
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