You could say that I was dreaming in a dream.

In my dream's dream, all my family members were bustling about, acting very busy, it's almost as if we were preparing for something. Anticipating something.

There was a bus. With very narrow exits and SIX bus conductors. I had some close friends and some family on the bus with me and we were to get out at the stop just below an overhead bridge. I let my family and friends get out first because I was the fattest and biggest among them. Everyone could fit out the complex exits(sort of like a tunnel to get out from) but I could not and was taking my time trying to go about it.

The impatient bus driver(not dissimiliar to the Metro bus drivers) took off and I thought, "Nevermindla.. still got another stop in front,".

He stopped at the next stop and once again I could not fit out the exit. I was getting angry. He did not wait for me to get out and moved on.

This time I was sceaming at the bus and his six bus conductors, "BAGI SAYA TURUNLAH!! KENAPA TAK BAGI SAYA TURUN!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

They eventually stopped at the side of the road and I got off. As the bus was driving off, one of the bus conductor called out to me. He waved a goodbye at me and I waved one back.

We were supposed to go to the Maxis headquarters to arrange something. Like I said, we were anticipating something. I went into the maxis headquarters and tried contacting my family with my handphone. To my utter horror, there was NO signal. I thought, "How can it be so ironic? I'm at the headquarters and there is no line from Maxis? Wtf?"

My Aunty saw me and she ushered me upstairs.

Suddenly the upstairs of the maxis headquarters became the downstairs of my new house(here in Kedah). But it had more doors and more windows and the outside of the house looked like the outside of my house in Subang. There was some sort of festival going on outside and fireworks lit up the night sky. They weren't noisy at all and the sparks were moving very very slowly. Like sparkly bubbles floating up into the sky.

My grandmother was sitting among us and I did not feel that it was weird because I knew she was coming back from where she went to to be with us for just this one time. In my dream, my grandfather was still alive.(though in real life it is not possible because my grandfather died 5 days BEFORE my grandmother).

We were rushing out for an open house and I went up to my room(it is my room in Subang Jaya, but with the size of Li Shen's room here in Kedah) and started to try on clothes in the dark. I could not see what I was wearing but at intervals a mirror would suddenly appear in front of me and I'd be horrified at my horrendous dressing style and throw everything off. It was nearly 10pm before I was satisfied and the strangest part of my dream was that my father did not scold me for taking so long.

The open house was not an open house but a cinema theater. My grandmother came back from the dead to be with us to watch a movie.

She sat in the row behind mine and she looked normal. Whereelse, my "still alive" grandfather looked very disoriented and very old. I was burdened by this tremendous guilt for not visiting him enough after the demise of my grandmother. I hugged my grandmother and asked her if she remembered that the last time we watched a movie together was when we watched Sweet Home Alabama on a hot afternoon during my form4 year?

She said yes and we both hugged each other and cried. Then I grabbed the side of her head and stared into her eyes. I really wanted to look at those eyes before I did not have the chance to ever see them again. See, my grandmother had cataract. Hence, her eyes were a strange translucent grey/brown sort of shade and if you take it the wrong way, it can look scary. But to me they were just my grandmothers' special eyes and I stared at it wanting to photograph her eyes in my head. I told her to let me look into her eyes before she was gone.

The following day, we had a grand reception at one of our houses. Everybody who attended the actual funeral were there but the atmosphere was more cheerful than sombre. My grandfather was moving around the crowd, minding his own business. It was almost like he was not interacting with the people around him. But in my dream he has not died.

 And he was standing straght(in real life he had tuberculosis of the back and spent the last 30 years of his life as a hunchback)..just like how an aunty said she saw him in her dream the day after he died.(In her dream, he had uncombed hair and was holding a suitcase in a dark empty place. He was looking around with a worried look on his face. This dream occured after the death of my grandfather and during the 5 days that my grandmother was in a coma before she was taken off the ventilation system).

In my dream, I was still overwhelmed with the guilt of not visiting more when I should have. After the entire party was over, all my distant relative left and my grandmother and grandfather got into a van. There were some officers of sorts in the van to take them away with them. We waved our goodbyes to them and saw their van turned a corner at the end of the street and disappeared out of sight.

I woke up from my dream feeling very sad. Why did I have to look at my grandmothers' grey brown eyes so intently? Why did she come back only to see a movie with us? I thought about how she was at ease when she came back for the movie in my dream.

Immediately, the guilt about not visiting my grandfather came back to me. I wondered if I had the time to visit him this weekend...before I remembered that he had passed away too.

After awhile I was crying like a mad fuck like that.. crying my eyes out just short of wailing. Luckily Lie Yuen could not hear me from the next room.

Apparently my brother gets his moods too. Just last week he bought a packet of horse peas when he was out with my parents and he suddenly started crying and my parents asked him why, "I remember Yeah Yeah used to make horse peas for us to eat..".. then my father felt so touched. My father seldom gets affected when my brother gets emotional. He usually scolds some sense into my brother to stop acting so emotional. But this is a different reason leh.

Every now and then, I want to go back to their house in USJ3. Where there would be fruits and snacks served every other hour, the floor tediously cleaned for me to lie down on and you know, just somewhere to call home. Where the occupants there doted on you no matter how old you are.

It's been half a year liao.

If it wasn't for my daily nescafe fix, my notes would look like crap as there'll be little sperms all over the page. (ink blots that get flicked as I keep nodding off).

Lie Yuen was demonstrating to me what her brother used to do as a child with the laundry basket.

We are currently learning about oral biology and for every two students, there is a set of plastic teeth from Japan to be shared. This is so that we can study the shape of the tooth, the cusps, the ridges, the roots, the junction between the enamel and the dentin etc. But it's good to camwhore with as well.

Lishen

Josiah

Ini aku.

You know, one thing good about having a camera(and bringing it with you whereever you go), is that you do not have to slave away copying the diagrams and notes during the really rushed practical sessions! :) Just snap snap with the 5 mega pixels camera and put it in the computer and voila, instant notes.

Brenda took this photo. This is a slide of our cardiac(heart) muscles.

One of our favourite past times:

Maxis, MaXIS, MAXIS.


Li Shen sleeping during sociology class.


It's okay, it's only sociology class. The book that you see is titled Geisha, A Life. Nothing to do with sociology.


L-r: Josiah, Yan Rui, Pei Zhi, Brenda, Angela, Amalina and Xin Yi.
A group shot after their presentation.

Even though we're really tight on cash what with the price hike and all, I have this weird compulsion to spend meaninglessly on rubbish.


Anybody remember these capsulated toys?


Apparently they are Naruto weapons. To me, it's just new keychains.


How about that? Old school coca cola bottle!

Last weekend, I was back in Subang for Justin's birthday as well! Sorry for the late post, Justin! Was too caught up with other things. I've finally gotten around to uploading the pictures from his gathering.


L-r: Rachel, Nadine, Me, Chee Kiang

Krystle


CK and I. <3


L-r: Nadine, Daryl, Jon, Rachel, Chee Kiang, Gaya


Fuckanathan.


Presenting Justin's dog, Evo. Yep, trust the car freak to come up with such a name. :) Really cute and light too!


L-r: Krystle, the birthday boy Justin, Daryl


L-r: Huini and Krystle.


I was hugging the dog too tightly and it started screaming. Really.


the love birds jonandrachel.

Actually, it was a joint birthday party for Justin and his 17 year old brother, Aaron. But Aaron left with a few of his friends and didn't even stay around for the cake cutting session. Strange... somemore the cake wrote, "Happy birthday Justin and Aaron!".

Before the cake cutting session, Chee Kiang and I went to the padang for some "catching up" since we haven't seen each other for quite a while... then when we came back we kena scolded by Daryl from the end of the road(we were at the other end, walking back), "HOI!! Not your birthday la today!!! Go paktor during people's birthday somemore!!!"

Pai seh wei.

Nice shot of the cake! Oh, and Justin too!


Behehehehhehehe.


Happy Belated Birthday, Justin!!


Check out Huini's cool t-shirt!


It was just a small gathering for a few of his friends.. but it was good to catch up with these people. :) it's always good to catch up with old friends.


There's a kitten living with the Lee household as well. How do cats and dogs live together???


Best friends somemore.

I was awake for more than an hour before my classes started. I managed to copy every single damn thing the bullet-train Indian lecturer blasted at us and woooohooo my notes were in demand man. MY notes were in demand.

This might not seem much, but coming from the girl who falls asleep for more than 10 minutes in almost every class(but I've got a digital recorder to back me up, no worries)...this is a major achievement. So just humour me, can?

Shifting house is a major hassle.

 
We decided to eat at somewhere nice for our first meal as NON-Hostelites with the other classmates who were staying around our new housing area.
l-r: Lie Yuen, Me, Xin Yi, Brenda


l-r: Pei Zhi, Josiah, Yan Rui and Li Shen


Cheers!!! Down with hostel!! Yeah!!


We ate at this place called Le Boss in Lagenda Heights(an area with loads of shop lots). Yes, yes, Kedah got such things.

 
My carbonara.. bleurgh. Not great.

On Thursday we had a 5 hours break before our sociology class(yes, why do I even need sociology classes is beyond me). And it was the opening day for Final Destination 3. This marks the first ever movie I've watched in Kedah!(scribbles date in diary).

And this is how the opening day of Final Destination 3 in Sungai Petani looks like. 9 of us went for the movie and we had one whole row to ourselves plus the luxury of putting our legs up on the row in front and screaming and clapping without being a nuisance. Final Destination 3 is all about decapitating. Lovely pattern this time around though. Everyone stayed far away from my camera after the movie.

 
The Vincci in Sg. Petani was on sale. YES. Miracles happen in the strangest of places. Bought these lovely babies for 50% off. RM37!!


I could rub it all over my face, neck, skin, arms, stomach.....sniffing the newness of the tweed-pretending-to-be-velvet finishing propagates me with waves and waves of euphoria...*sniffffffffffff*


I refused to do any laundry before the arrival of The Washing Machine.


A little something to decorate my room with. I brought this photo to show my housemates quite sometime ago and forgot to bring it back to the photo album. This is Mervyn at 0 years old. Fat and heavy. Like a lump of pork! His digits had yet to be formed(See the Doraemon like hands).


The tall papaya tree outside our house at dawn and at dusk!


I could actually *SHOP* in Kedah! Lovely glittery eyeshadow of different shades. Haiyah, cheapo brand only lah.


Somemore wall decorations.. a mirror and two bubble action figurines container. It's a ritual for my guests(so far only got about 6..) to blow some bubbles when they visit my room.


The front of my room! Poor students buy pink canvas wardrobes.
Shelf=RM66. Wardrobe=RM40. Plastic drawers=RM56


I know it's quite transparent. Will buy curtains soon.
Blinds=RM30 each. Chair=RM150. Blue plastic Ah Pek table=RM36. Bed frame=RM100. 8 inches mattress=RM300(i need a good sleep). Bed side table=RM55.


This is Li Shen's room.


This is the whole of Li Shen's room. It's crazy. I know. She can like roll all over the place happily in circles at hours on end.


Lie Yuen's room.


Another angle of Lie Yuen's room.


Our dining table! :) We got the four plastic chairs for free because we bought so many things from that furniture shop.


The RM20 shoe rack. My housewarming present to our household. :P


The almighty satisfactory chiropracter-visits-free washing machine. The three of us fight over who gets to press the buttons and pour the soap powder in...etc. RM580.


Our beautiful fridge. I open the door and stare at the peachy glow from its lamp and let the cool air sooth my troubles away..


Oh!! Our first catered meal. Lovely stuff. It's like homecook food, only better!(heh, kidding mum!) But there's even herbal soup, herbal egg, poli sang choi, chee yuik etc. All we have to do is leave our tiffin carrier on the pillar and we have dinner at 6.30pm sharp. RM5.50 per meal.


Some decorations for the room. Glow in the dark glittery Hibiscus and Butterflies.... kecantikan!

It glows oh so brightly!!

 
After our first catered meal, we decided to check out the playground next to our house! Some boys from uni were playing basketball there. They play there every evening. Yeah, the housing area that I'm in has ALOT of students from AIMST. I'd say about 20%.


Lie Yuen having a go on the swings..


Li Shen trying to climb on the poor duck thingie.


Orang tua tak sedar diri!


Orang tua yang sedar diri tapi nak camwhore jugak.


Lie Yuen and her elongated legs!

 
You'll know when you're wayyyy over the age limit for playgrounds is when your legs are as long as the playground ladder.


I used to do this alot as a kid. Balance, balance, balance and then kena marah by grandmother.


The beautiful sunset which can be seen from our garden. Hey, don't hate us just because we're staying next to Gunung Jerai.


While I was doing sit ups(no photos, later my market value go down like shit), Lie Yuen peered at me and asked me whether I wanted to go home already or not. I saw the moon behind her and snapped this picture. So nice right!!


Perhaps one of my best shots to date. The effect is damn nice!! I asked Lie Yuen to stand behind the yellow glow of the street lamp, and the tree and the evening sky as a backdrop on slow shutter speed worked wonders!


I HAD to get one also, right?