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Tuesday, May 16, 2006


A Happy Woman's Narcissism Must Be Beared

Sometimes a woman gets too emotional for her own good.

She picks up the phone and does silly things to bring confusion to everyone involved. Unneccesary heartaches.

If you don't understand, try having your period while you are living alone away from home and everyone and everything that matter to you.

The poor unassuming boyfriend takes the shit she lashes out.

Sorry dear, I promise to stop my emoness.

He picked me up all the way from Pudu Raya on Thursday night to save me the hassle of taking the train back with a bottle of water and a snack bar, knowing very well what I need after 5 hours of ass-pimple-producing journey. I love you for that dear. :)

After long talks, a long supper, a walk under a 3am night sky near our old primary schools(he was from Lick Hung, I was from SRSS19. Two schools situated side by side. Yet we never knew each other till secondary school.) hand in hand..


I came home to find this on my bed and felt so happy because I love little surprises. :) Little meaningful surprises.

Two mornings later, I was awoken by a stranger outside my house. I went out with just-out-of-bed hair, unbrushed teeth and old volleyball school jersey with shorts to peer sleepily at the gate.


Thank you dear. Thank you so much. You needn't have to. :) You had me at "Happy Wesak Day". :D Wonder what the florist must've thought.


That perhaps you're crazy to send something so sweet on a religious day.


It made my day. My week, my month....haha,enough to sustain me till I see you again.


I've been very petty for the past few weeks. But something bigger cropped up and I'm not going to stand in the way. He got an ASEAN scholarship to do Biological Science in NTU, Singapore. All he needs to do is pass this Thursday's interview, and he'll be there in August. A 3 years course with a 3 years bond with the Singapore government.


One.

And me? I have 4 more years here in Kedah. Another 3 years with the government and god knows where they will post me to.


Two.

As for now, the plan to do our government posting together has been scraped since he won't be graduating as a pharmacist in Malaysia.


Three.

Embarking on another period of long distance relationship. The minimum amount of years would be about 7 - 8 years.


Four.

I'll be 26 or 27 years old or more before I know what it's like to have something most of you have everyday.


Five.

=) He made me see that all hope is not lost. As we'll co-ordinate our schedules to see each other often enough.


Six.

Two weeks. Two buses. North of Malaysia. South of Malaysia.


Seven.

I will miss him. :|


Eight.

No one should stand in the way of anybody's education.


Nine.

Because even if you promise someone Forever, things can still turn around and break away.


Ten.

It's still bad, but at least it's only Singapore and Malaysia.


Eleven.

And my mum said I can visit him in Singapore whenever. :D


Twelve.

I'll probably appeal and appeal to the government to send me to Johor after I graduate.


Here's to us, cheers:)


Why can't roses stay soft, sweet smelling and pretty forever?


=) Another bouquet to stand the wear of time.


l-r: Valentine's Day bouquet from him back in form4(2002), Valentine's Day Bouquet from him back in form5(2003). Yes, I have dead things in my room that's about 4 years and 3 years old. LOL.I swear if you flick the roses, they'll break into powder form and fall to the floor. I should have kept last year's Valentine's Day bouquet. Too bad my mum made me put it into a vase and it decomposed. ;(

Jayelle's back and neck ached at 3:46:59 pm
 

c.ho
May 20, 2006   02:14 AM PDT
 
yes.. i seriously did that. i suppose you could say it was a rather stressful time for me... so, was trying to convince myself that there was nothing for me to be upset about.. which, in truth.. there wasn't. However, i just.. ended up crying anyway.
Name
May 18, 2006   07:07 PM PDT
 
all the best! hope that it'll work out for you. No doubt long dsitance can be hard.. but who knows!
Jayelle
May 18, 2006   03:08 AM PDT
 
kai-lin: lol thanks... would you be a dear and help me see that he eats well, sleeps well and shits well? :) hahaha.. say only.. dunno whether government let or not;)

c.ho: LOL that is deranged man!! :) u seriously did htat??

pY: hahaa.. my love for roses were instilled since the interact club days.:D

mizzvickz: sorry~!!! bet there are guys lining up outside ur door ur just playing it cool!! i know u are~~~:D

yeehou: eh u jeles for what! u have to give PEOPLE flowers ma;D not the other way around.

li-lynn: thank you thank you THANK YOU:) yes..:) you know, i know. hehehe

EH: model couple?~~!! =) thanks .. haha. my friend once told me that it's not good to keep dead roses. bad for lovelife. *raises eyebrows*

DA: eh? is this Leong Hooi? yeah he is..:( Did eng hooi get into Nus? she's so lucky she got the interview......:) all the best to the both of u as well~

mich: ouch..oh man. sorry to hear:( ..yeah. we'll just see how things goes. just go with the flow yeh:)
Mich
May 17, 2006   07:44 AM PDT
 
Awww Jolene.....CK is SO sweet! ^___^

LDR...oh, I can't say I envy you. ._. I've just been in one for almost 1 year & it ended. True is, we were 10k km away (me in Europe, him in Malaysia) but still... GOOD LUCK! It's nothing easy but hopefully you can make it. :)
DA
May 17, 2006   05:23 AM PDT
 
Well didn't know CK's dropping pharm to take up Bio at NTU.. Wish u guys all the best! (inspiration for us :)
EH
May 17, 2006   04:46 AM PDT
 
thats sweet. =) i keep dead things too, but cant top the length of yours la haha. i sorta look at you two as the model ldr couple.
li-lynn
May 17, 2006   02:29 AM PDT
 
this post is so sweeeeet! and he's so sweeeeeeeeet! and so are the both of u together. i wish u both the best =)

ps: receiving flowers from the person u love absolutely roXx rite? hehe
Yee Hou
May 17, 2006   02:22 AM PDT
 
Jealous sial...
mizzvickz
May 17, 2006   01:30 AM PDT
 
so sweeettttt..
i can't even recall any of my exes giving me flowers. lol.
i feel deprived of a guy now after reading this post. AHAHAH. kidding.
i am 'currently' pro singlehood :P
-pY-
May 17, 2006   12:45 AM PDT
 
Oh my gosh! FLowers!! Roses! Roses! Roses!!

Ahh, that is just TOO nice. =)

Yup, we girls are emo! Haha.

Roses! (sorry, again.)
c.ho
May 16, 2006   09:48 PM PDT
 
sniff sniff..

eh.. you trying to make us all emo oso isit?
hehehhe

yeah.. i agree with kai lin. we women are made to be emo la.. most of us anyway. me? I stick my head under my blanket to scream "I'M HAPPY!!!" just to end up bawling. 0.o? yeah..

*hugs*.. you can dooo iitt! heheheh.. :D wishing the both of you the best la!
kai lin
May 16, 2006   09:14 PM PDT
 
hey you,

girls emo all the time. we were made that way.
and hey it's only singapore and malaysia. the little red dot won't float away with cheeks on it.
and he loves you so...sigh
you can mati-mati transfer to johor..and he go find job in jurong area.. then you guys will be only an hour away!
cut it out wei you guys so lovey dovey. quite menjelouskan lor.

=]
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